Yay! It’s May! Ok, enough rhyming (though I don’t make any promises). You probably already have figured out (at least if you’ve been paying attention the past four months) that new months mean new posts about monthly goals – both what is coming, and how things have gone last month. So it should be no surprise that this post is all about the May Goals & Accountability!
This one, however, is a little different, because before I get into the goals and accountability, I need to share something a little personal and with a bit of backstory.
A while back, I shared that I have a day job. Well, basically, it’s no more. I was working for a probiotic company for quite a while, which was great because it was part time and I could make my own schedule, which was perfect because I didn’t have to ask off to do shoots (as a model or makeup artist), or podcast interviews (want to be a guest?), and could still make money when I didn’t have shoots or podcast interviews.
This was pretty important, because when we moved to LA, Tommy took a huge pay cut to do the fellowship, which meant that the majority of the financial responsibility went on my shoulders.
Previously, I had been relying on my income as a Beachbody coach to supplement financially when I didn’t have enough coming in for shoots, but since I slowed that significantly, that isn’t enough to balance it out.
Basically, a while ago, Pepsi bought the probiotic company, and they didn’t really have part time positions at the time, but let the company I worked for continue to let me do my job. As the company became more Pepsi and less KeVita, changes continued to be made, and about six weeks ago, I was told that part time positions would be eliminated, and I would have to choose between part time and full-time. I asked what the full-time position would be like (because the roles changed quite a bit), and what salary would be. I don’t think they were expecting me to even consider full time, because they were unable to give me an answer, and told me they’d have more information the next week. About six weeks later, they finally had an answer for me – that my position was eliminated, and I was welcome to apply and interview for something else at Pepsi.
I was SO tempted to try to reenact this:
when the phone call finally came, but thought it was probably unwise in case I wanted to use them as a reference again… Plus, “position eliminated” and “fired” are definitely different things!
Anyway, during that six-week period of waiting to hear back, I suspected I would potentially be facing a transition of SOME kind, so I began looking for and applying to jobs, but very selectively, and honestly without much success so far. I also worked the maximum I could for KeVita/Pepsi (they have a limit for PT employees) to save up money in case what happened happened, so I would not be in a bad position financially!
I don’t know how to process all of this right now, and vacillate back and forth between so many different emotions!
Sometimes, I think that this month is a perfect opportunity to go “full speed ahead” and really push myself to finish all the courses I’ve bought (that have been mentioned ad nauseum in my monthly goals and accountability), implement what I learn from them, actually promote and try to sell my online makeup course, and complete the projects that have been swimming in my head that have been started for a while (like my book and the planner/journal/goal system), actually do some work to start a speaking career, and see if I can really make it again as a completely self-employed person like I was before we moved to California.
Sometimes, I think this is an exciting opportunity to explore – whether it’s exploring Los Angeles and the LA life (like trying background acting, getting back with a modeling agency to do non-union commercials, pushing extra hard to do more makeup, etc), or to explore a potential new full or part-time position that is in line with my goals, or where I can learn something new that will support my personal and professional goals.
And of course, I’d be lying if I didn’t say that sometimes, I’m terrified. Since the job search hasn’t been very fabulous to me so far, I keep getting scared that I will have to do something I hate, full time, to make things work. There are feelings of failure coming up. Lots of anxiety (which is to be expected, especially for someone who’s been diagnosed with generalized anxiety disorder and depression).
Tommy tagged me in this post today on Instagram (I reposted it), and that definitely helped me release some of that anxiety – by triggering it!
We’ll see what happens this coming month – it should be interesting, and I am going to do my best to document it.
Since I spent all of April either working as much as I possibly could, or looking for jobs when I wasn’t, I honestly made little progress on my April goals. I am not even going to show you the screenshots from 42goals.com like I did the other months. BUT, you will see them when I update you in June from the May Goals & Accountability, because my PERSONAL career, looking for a job, and exploring LA life (a combo of the sentiments above, I guess) will be my full-time job for now.
I’m putting it out there to the universe (and anyone reading this that may be able to help) that I’m looking for a flexible, remote position (because when the fellowship is over, we will move wherever Tommy can find a job that’s a logical next step for HIS career, since I can be anywhere). I love to write, and am decent at social media, and have several different resumes I can provide.
I am also putting out that my goals are to eventually be back to being 100% fully self-employed (unless something amazing happens with the previously mentioned job search section I fall in love with), by my writing, course creation, eventual speaking career, and supplemented by selective makeup/grooming jobs with amazing people (though I did apply to ESPN and CNN, because those jobs would be awesome too)!
I’m trying so hard to get better at asking for help, so it’s a big deal (meaning difficult for me) to ask this, but if you know of anything that could help me out, I’d appreciate it – even if it is prayer, checking on me, or other moral support!
Another way to help me is accountability, so please feel free to ask how I am doing on any of the following (which are pasted & modified from last month’s goals & accountability):
1. Continue to track on 42goals.com the same behaviors, but to be more intentional with the personal development (finish courses) and write/content/add to audience (implement what’s learned in courses!) directives. This puts me toward both goals I wavered on in Q1 – growing my audience, and finishing my book.
2. Do a complete overhaul of my website. (I was told it isn’t a good representation of how cool I am in person by someone I greatly respect).
3. Get caught up on all personal development courses/memberships
4. Hire a coach
5. Finish my book
6. Finish my goal-planning system.
7. Celebrate with Blogfest and then a honeymoon, followed by…. maybe moving? We shall see!
And somewhere in there also now includes “FIND A JOB!” (unless miracles {which I believe in} happen, and I don’t need to)!
By the way, since Personal Development is part of the list, I should share with you that my personal development book club is currently reading The 5-Second Rule by Mel Robbins*, who I saw speak at the Success Live conference back in September! Click here to learn about the book club, click here to join (on facebook), and click here to buy the book*!
Thanks for reading! I know that was long, but I already feel better putting my thoughts down! If you have any suggestions, resources, or words of encouragement, please comment below!
xoxo, Mandie
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